Hello and welcome, you beautiful human being, you! Today on Head Full of Red I am going to switch things up a bit and experiment with some creative writing. It’s not the most light of heart – I hope I don’t scare you away by being a Debbie Downer – but here it is!
Anything but that
She is alone with her thoughts, as she often is, contemplating the meaning of those three delicate words that he had spoken to her not an hour before. They had slipped through the thin space between his lips so effortlessly, but did he mean them? It was hard to say. She used to think that to hear them would bring her joy, relief – peace of mind. But now, a much bigger part of her clung desperately to the possibility that they held even the slightest bit of regret on his part. They had taken her by surprise, but for all the wrong reasons. It wasn’t especially the three consecutive words that he had strung together in a sentence that had caught her off guard, but rather, the incredible feeling of despair that swept over her upon hearing them. She had waited for so long – a burning desire in the very depths of her being that grew each and every day – to throw those same words in his face. But she remained a prisoner of her own cowardice, and now it was too late. Now they were in the air, but never as sweet as she had once imagined they would be. She had been robbed of them, and they reeked of his bitter breath as a result. Why did they sting her so?
“I hate you,” he had said.
And she hated him too, or so she thought. So she had convinced herself for months now, leading up to this moment, but could never bring herself to tell him. Why didn’t she tell him! She had had it in her power; it was always on the tip of her tongue. But something always held her back. Was she waiting – was that it? Waiting for what? For him to change her mind…
“Say something!”
“Say it!”
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“I hate you.”
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Anything but that…
© 2014 Michelle Dumont
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